If I never get to see another rainbow Or share another life with a friend
Profile Priscilla, 040692 hotmail/ facebook I wonder how it must have felt when David stood to face Goliath on a hill. I imagine that he shook with all his might until You took his hand, and held on tight. 'Cause You were there, You were there in the midst of danger's snare You were there, You were there always. You were there when the hardest fight seemed so out of reach. Oh, You were there, You were always there. You were always there. — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits IGNYTE Facebook choir forum choir Adele Ain Amanda BD Andrea Angeline Aqilah Ariston Beston Carolyn Cheryl Christopher Cindy Claire Claudia Christabel Damian Denise Daryl Davelle Delise Elizaberth Ethel Eugene Fabian Felicia Gabriel Geraldine Hannah HuiQing Jesselyn Jia Xin Jingming Jingwen Jie Jie Jocelyn Jollyn Jomaine Kaiwei Kenneth Kok Kiong Kymberly Liangying Liting Maeve Madeleine Madeline Mandy Melissa Meiqi Michael Marianne Michael bro MOYRA! 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I remembered the month of March was a month when I struggled so much because I have been "haunted" by the thought of wanting to know the "real" truth of my first breakup. And now, in May, I finally found out the answer.. But I rather not know it now. Either way, I was still struggling. I am still struggling, knowing how bad I was then. Sometimes, knowledge does destroy or take away someone's hope/future. But I guess I still need to stay strong and I will do my best to erase every memory from my mind, an unknown past. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't make any decision when I can't focus. Now that I have made stupid mistakes then, I am facing the consequences. It's so costly and heavy. I can't blame anyone because then, it was me who made the decision despite so many advices and warnings from mum and God. It's so heavy bearing that guilt.. Now that I have taken up new commitments, the enemy seems to taking that chance to bring me down even more. The message I received early in the morning literally crushed me. I thought I could help, I thought I could change that mindset, I thought I could be that good SP now and being that good sister. Apparently, I was wrong. I couldn't do much at all. I can't be that good role model. But I am glad God helped through someone else. So many people come and go so easily out of my life. I really wonder now if the problem lies with me. Maybe I should change more, to be more accommodating. Probably I can keep those who are precious to me. I am so tired because nothing seems to be working well. Or maybe my expectations are too high. I don't know. I am still human after all. Going through so much, it's not easy to say it doesn't matter to me. Even biblical characters had their own struggles then that it was recorded in the bible. I guess my problems are nothing compared to their problems they faced then but still, they emerged victorious with the help of God. Maybe I shouldn't to be moping about how bad my life can be. Perhaps I should really place every single bit of faith in God and make sure I still stand firm in Him. Perhaps if I look at the problems with a different perspective, there should be something optimistic in there or that hope God has placed in. Responsibilities increased overnight. Faith in God doubled up. I should look to God and not man. Lord, take over my every decision. You are God and I am not. You are the painter and I am the painting. I wonder how it must have felt When David stood to face Goliath on a hill I imagine that he shook with all his might Until You took his hand, and held on tight 'Cause You were there, You were there In the midst of danger's snare You were there, You were there always You were there when the hardest fight Seemed so out of reach Oh, You were there, You were always there You were always there So there he stood upon that hill Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill But God in all his sovereignty had bigger plans And just in time, You brought a lamb 'Cause You were there, You were there In the midst of the unclear You were there, you were there always You were there when obedience Seemed to not make sense You were there, You were always there You were always there So haven't I learned that my ways Aren't as high as Yours are And You alone keep the universe From crumbling into dust You are God and though we would Not have understood You There You were Hanging blameless on a cross You would rather die than leave us in the dark Every moment, every planned coincidence Just all makes sense With Your last breath You were there, You were there During history's darkest hour You were there, You were there always You were the Victor and the King You were the power in David's swing You were the calm in Abraham You are the God who understands You are the strength when we have none You are the living, Holy one You were, You are and You will always be the Risen Lamb of GodI will stay strong. I will be a Barnabas, a David, a Queen Esther. This is not the end but the beginning of staying even stronger with God. Psalms 77. You were there. Agape, Thank you Jesus. Amen. Labels: credits to photobucket.com
Father, I would still have to say You have been good